telika me 8elei i oxi????????????????????

fetos hmoun deutera gumnasiou ki autos trith. otan ton eida to erwteutika trela!!! koitazomastan me kleutes maties...
meta ta xristougenna , afou suniditopoihsa oti 8a fugei (8a paei prwth lukeiou) , apofasisa na steilw mhnuma... sto mhnuma egrapsa ''h psuxologia mou einai xalia eksetias sou'' (ekeinon ton kairo hmoun xalia!!! eixa kati san kata8lipsh) kserw htan megalh xazomara(!)...alla meta to katalaba...
gia na mhn ta pollulogo , efaga mia wraiotath xilopita!!! tis epomenes meres kai oi duo mas apofeugame tis tuxaies sunantiseis kai ta koitagmata...
meta apo kairo , afou eixa apofasisei na ton kseperasw , arxise na ka8ete apenanti mou kai na me koitaei , evaze tous filous tou na me ''parakolou8oun'' kai na me koitane enw autos mou eixe gurismenh thn plath...... epishs eixan er8ei oloi mazi se ena dialleima kai enas filos tou me rwthse se pia taksh paw , enw hkseran!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! akomh , mia mera milousa me enan allo filo mou , gurnaw apotoma pisw kai tous vlepw OLOUS na me koitane!!!
twra pou teleiwse to sxoleio , perasa mprosta apo to spiti tou (giati menoume konta kai anagastika pernaw) htan eksw o aderfos tou , me eide kai ton fwnakse!!!
peite mou thn gnwmh sas...me 8elei i oxi? an nai, giati den kanei kati? ti na kanw gia na ginei kati twra pou 8a einai makria? (einai ix8us)

please apantiste!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!